drie susters en ‘n ma

I was off to work on Monday and what a reality shock that was!  The previous week our big boy went back to school and little Lollie went to preschool for the first time.  He’s really struggling to adapt and fighting with all his might against the new routine.  I know everyone tells you that he’s okay and that he’ll be fine, but he’s still my little baby. My heart is breaking when the teacher tells me that he didn’t participate in any class activities today, but she’s confident that tomorrow will be better.  But being a very confident mom, walking and talking with a mission and passion (I mean he’s my second child and I’m suppose the pass this test with a distinction …) I held my pose very well and agreed and pointed out some things that she might want to try with him and walked out, head held high and with my confident mission and passion walk.

Closing the gate behind me I felt as if I could just sit there and cry with my little Lollie.   We build all these barriers around us and nobody can penetrate them and then trying to keep my pose at a preschool, I all of a sudden felt like giving up everything just to be able to keep him in my arms every morning instead of dropping him off at a preschool.

Fortunately reality kicked in very quickly when I looked at my credit card balance … So, everything is back to normal!